Friday, December 31, 2010

Eventful 2010 :)

A year in which my "myopia" improved, and i learnt to see things & people clearer, in a different perspective ;)
I've learnt to wear an "armour" to protect myself, for this is a dog-eat-dog world.
I've learnt to always fight for what i want, for i've only one life, and i should not let myself down. You never try, you never know ;)
I've learnt to forgo things at times to achieve other things, despite being very reluctant to do so.
I've learnt that life is not a bed of roses (in fact, i don't like flowers :P), and only hard work (plus luck, of course!) brings success!
I've learnt that a plane will not reach its destination if the pilot & co-pilot have different targets.
I've learnt that money is not everything, but without money, one can't do anything.
I've learnt that dreams will always remain as dreams, if one doesn't do something to realise/ materialise it.
I've learnt that i'm a person with strong principles, and sometimes too stubborn, and my OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) is getting worse :P

Goodbye 2010! I've lotsa sweet memories in you :) Been travelling a lot this year :)
Disappointments exist to push the heart stronger, and also be stepping stones for higher achievements.
May all i learnt in 2010 be good lessons, and all my fond memories be kept eternally in my memory to be recollected in decades to come ;)

Happy new year!

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Of Strong Women...

I've always admired & looked up to strong women in my life, be it in real life or in fiction (drama/ movies/ novel). I guess deep inside me, i yearn to be one :)
I love women who have strong determination, and always know what they want in life, and have clear targets & goals.
I feel fortunate to meet a few of them throughout my life journey, and they have been the ones who've inspired me in many aspects.
They've showed me that although being the "weaker sex" (this is an undeniable fact!), women can do so many other things, and sometimes be no lousier than men. It's through these career women whom i see the perseverance & real ability of females, especially in working mothers (i really salute them).
There's no doubt life is about making decisions & sacrificing oneself, and sometimes standing at the crossroads, hesitating which path to choose. Man proposes, God disposes.
But if one doesn't have a draft (if not a blueprint/ a plan) for his or her life, he or she will be like a floating leaf in the sea, leaving fate to the waves, going wherever the waves bring it to.

I'm glad that i've plans for my future :) However, there are times when i've to forgo some things due to circumstances. Hence, one must always be quick to come up with a Plan B rather than leaving everything to fate, just like prisoners on the death row.

To women i look up to, i thank you for inspiring me (knowingly/ unknowingly), for being role models in my life :)
I hope to be like you people in future. Maybe, hopefully, better be! :D

Sunday, December 05, 2010

Sis's dolls

I've never liked dolls & stuffed toys before, not even when i was a little girl.
My sister loves them a lot! And she has lotsa them on her bed, whereas my bed has only a pillow, bolster & blanket, that's all.
This morning, we brought all her dolls out for a sunbath. And after that, i brought out a big black "garbage" plastic bag, and told her they are gonna go, as they've been taking so much space on her bed; there's hardly any space for her to stretch her legs. She understood, nodded lightly, and looked at me putting her dolls & stuffed toys one by one into the bag with her cute puppy eyes. She managed to "save" 3 of them to remain as her loyal companions.
Great! No more "flying toys" having a getaway on my bed from her cramped bed in the middle of the night :P

How i wish i could cuddle my cute lil' sis to sleep like i used to do when we were younger. She's no doubt still very cute now, but a lot more cheekier! :D
I LOVE YOU, babe!
Here's wishing you "Happy Birthday" in advanced!
Will miss you hell a lot when you've flown across half the globe... (yeah i know it's in many more month's time, but still...)

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Movie: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (Part 1)

it's been 3 years since the book was released in 2007.
Nice movie, at least it didn't bore me like it did to some of the audience in the theatre, maybe they didn't read the book, or they didn't understand :P

The first time i got hold of a Harry Potter book, i was in Form 4, preparing for my 1st semester final exams! It was the 3rd sequel -- Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. My dad borrowed it from the school library for my sis to read, but she didn't. And so i was revising my Add Maths, and i got bored and flipped through the book, and that's it! Glued to it, and finished it! :P

Since then, i made it a habit to have a novel with me when i prepared for my exams. At least the thrill and the urge to finish the book kept me going in finishing my revision faster so that i could read the book -- i set a rule: finished revising a chapter, and and i got to read few pages of the novel :P Sounds lame, but it got me going :P

However, things have changed and i don't have to have a novel beside me whenever i revise, because i've got just too much to revise and too lil' time to read a novel :P

Well, well.. Sometimes i really hoped that i could use some magic to get things done... In my dreams, perhaps ;)

Here's what i wrote 3 years ago after reading the book

Saturday, November 06, 2010

Life, to me

Life is hectic as a final year undergraduate. I pray for a peaceful mind to complete whatever i need to complete, smoothly. Life encompasses a myriad of things from various aspects. Life is about living a life. As a 22-year-old young lady, life to me is the reflection of the experiences and things i learnt throughout these 22 years. And these have molded me into who i am today.
I'm grateful to be given this life, to be loved by my family and friends, and to learn to love them. I share my life with them, for "no man is an island". I feel happier when i share my joy with them; i feel less depressed when i share my sorrow with them, although more often than not they are unable to solve my problem.
Living a life is a life-long learning process. I live for the present, i live as a 22-year-old.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Elective Research Project - Informal Acknowledgement :)

been busy for almost a year for this project. Was in a dilemma on which topic to choose around this time last year :P I know i've made the correct decision and may it lead to a fruitful success :)

spent lotsa months on the report writing, and few extremely busy weeks of collecting data together with my ever supportive teammate, Sheh Yinn ;) very grateful to UT B105 housemates for allowing me to become a "parasite" there for a few weeks :) and to my gang of friends who always hang out with me, go shopping, having karaoke sessions during the few hectic weeks.

Our supervising lecturer is the best supervisor, for she never treated us inferiorly as we are students, but care for us as her teammates (ehem... all 3 of us are co-writers la hehe :P ). I shall never forget the enjoyable process of doing this research, for i have 2 two sporting comrades whom i share sweet memories with ;)

My dad, despite having a very busy schedule himself, helped me to proof read my report :) Thanks a lot, DaD! and my MuM, she has been getting the same reply everyday when both of them call me at 10pm -- "i'm busy and tired writing my report :'(" and she never forgets to tell me to eat more :P Love u two lotsss :)

My roommate is the best roommate as she has been tolerating my craziness for 4 years :P Great patience she has :P

My close friends, who always listen to my laments, tolerate my "bipolar disorder", let me "whack" them, hug them, etc., i owe you all a big thanks :D

Last but not least, to my dearest sweetie, thanks and sorry for tolerating the ever busy me for these few months. Okaylah we cancel it off lah since you also have been so freakingly busy ever since you start working :P hehehe...

Saturday, October 23, 2010

I've to learn to love stuffs i do

Realised that interest really has a great influence on my motivation and enthusiasm on doing things.
Glad that i got 1 down today and 3 more to go; it's when i'm not under huge amount of stress that i get to pick up things and learn faster. However, if it hadn't been the huge amount of interest, i'd have slacked and took things easy. What a dilemma!

What we all need now to get motivated is eustress, not distress :'(

I love doing stuffs i love, but i've to learn to love all other stuffs i need to do too!

When there's just too many programmes running all at one time, the CPU hangs and sometimes shuts down by itself.

Out of 5 weekdays in this week, 3 meals per day, i was only full for less than 3 meals (out of 15) :( I need a treat to a nice meal, anyone?

Thursday, August 26, 2010

3rd session at OT



Observed alveolar bone grafting today :D
Cool!
Amazed at how bone marrow was harvested from iliac crest to be grafted to the alveolar bone on a cleft lip & palate today. We don't just operate on teeth okay... ;)
Tried surgical hand scrub. It's super painful! :'(


Monday, August 23, 2010

I like doing things i like *^.^*

I believe everyone needs to have at least something he/she likes to do to keep himself/herself sane, just like what i do everyday :)
I love talking to people i admire (my idols :P); a smile from them is enough to make me grin whole day long ;)
I love attending lectures, tutorials and clinical sessions of the subject(s) i like. I know it's not advisable to "discriminate" other subjects for i'm still an undergraduate waiting to be inspired, but i just can't help it to at least regard few, if not many subjects as my favourite ones. Well, I'm very much a "love it or hate it" person; i either like you a lot or hate you :P Hmm... i better learn to have some "grey zones" in my heart...
I feel enthusiastic in doing things i like ;)
I've to learn to do it the same way for things i hate but needed to be accomplished no matter what.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

A day at the operating theatre

Had fun on last Thursday morning at the operating theatre at my faculty.
Changing session at the changing room was full with laughters as we didn't have enough S-sized scrubs of the same colour. So i ended up wearing a blue top and a green bottom :P S-sized scrub pants are still very big sized and we had to help each other pull the waist strings to really tighten it up to prevent the pants from slipping down our hip, which could be a very hilarious disaster! :D

The OT is very very cold :( I guess the patient on the operating table must feel even colder as they are nude with only a cotton blanket & an air-filled "balloon" insulator on their body. At first i thought the air-filled blanket is filled with warm air. I tried to feel it, it's not warm at all. So we just shiver in the OT while craning our necks to watch the surgeons operate. When it gets crowded beside the operating table, the screen monitor will be our "target" for watching the operating field.

Somehow i like being in the OT as stuffs going on inside there is so much different from what we used to have elsewhere. Hmm... could be first-timer's feelings... It's fun watching how the patient is put to sleep under general anaesthetics, and how creamy propofol is :D Hmm... if i'm a guy, i would consider to become a cool oral maxillofacial surgeon :P

Watched surgical removal of a unicystic ameloblastoma & recountouring of orbital rim. Surprisingly it didn't feel that eerie when the surgeons peeled the patient's skin off his forehead. Didn't have enough time to stay longer to watch the bone grafting procedure (iliac spine to orbital rim) :( Hope to have more exposure at the major OT in future.

As an avid Grey's Anatomy fan, i felt very excited of my first GA OT experience, and i could say that the feeling of watching it on tv and being there is quite different :P

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Final year (5th year) of Undergraduate Studies

Will be entering my final year of undergraduate studies on July 12, 2010.
Praying for a smooth sailing academic year ahead.
May all my batchmates graduate together next year.
Hope this is my last year as a university undergraduate, but not the last year as a university student ;)
Here's wishing all my batchmates, my friends who will be graduating next year & juniors best of luck.
Special wishes goes to my dearest sis who'll start her final year of A-level studies on the same day ;)

Thursday, July 01, 2010

Maxis WebSMS


To those abroad/ going abroad, I hope the attached link is useful to u.

If u r a Maxis/ Hotlink user, u can register ur num at Maxis WebSMS and send 3 free websms per day to all Maxis/ Hotlink numbers (recipients need NOT be a registered user at Maxis WebSMS).

It's an official web application by Maxis&Hotlink.

I've been usin this serviz for 2years, so now i'm introducing it to u :)

A reply sms sent from the recipient to ur websms will cost he/ she 15sen. So in order to help ur recipient save money, ask him/ her to reply directly to your Maxis/ Hotlink number. But if ur Maxis/ Hotlink number is not on (if u've only 1 mobile phone, and it's used for ur foreign country number), then ask them to reply to the websms.

Well, u'll learn about it along the way ;)

I understand that real time conversation is made convenient by using instant messaging services & FB. Well, it's just a suggestion :) Just in case the person u wanna contact isn't online ;)

p/s Spread the word if u find this web application useful, or could be useful to others ;)

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Patience

My patience level has improved over the last 4 years in dental school. I've become more tolerating to things i couldn't tolerate in the past, more "immuned" to things i was "hyperallergic" to.
I'm very thankful to have been given the opportunity to improve myself in many ways, but i hope my personality & character haven't been "eroded" in any way, as seen in some people around me, which is sad.

As a researcher (i'm currently busy with my elective research project, which is compulsory --- a contrary to its name), i've also learned to be more patient as full concentration is needed in order to ensure everything is in its correct order and no error is tolerable; otherwise, a re-do will be unavoidable.

Next thing to be improved -- prioritising. This would be important in time management, and as a dental student, more so a final year dental student, which means i've lotsa major projects to complete, requirements to fulfil, and a future to ponder upon.

Life is a journey... to be enjoyed whilst we can :)

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Elective Research Project

Having holidays till July, but as an incoming final year student, i've to do my elective research project (actually it's compulsory to be completed before we graduate).
Staying at my project partner's house together with other batchmates & friends. Very grateful to them for letting me to stay at their place :D Having great time hanging out with them for this very final year before we part our ways upon graduation :)

Friday, April 30, 2010

Iron Man 2


Hahaha this is soOo funny, seeing Tony Stark in the doughnut :P
The storyline is a bit exaggerated & unrealistic here and there, but well, it's fiction! :)

Okay i love the Scarlett Johansson's hair colour!!! and her lips...

I love that "ferris wheel"-like table deco! Does anyone know where to get one? It's soOo 'physics' :P

I love how Pepper Potts takes care of Tony Stark, mummy-ing him around, so sweet! I just love the way they interact :) and I guess everyone could see that coming :P *see what?* Go watch it!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Please study! *telling myself*


I don't know whether i'm too stressed out or lacking stress from seeing other people studying 'cause this is the first time i spend my study weeks for final exams at home.
Please study lah :'(
It's Final BDS Professional Examination Part 1, you know?!
Work harder, please...

I miss my "personal tutor", or rather "nanny"... 'Cause i'll be nagged to study... Sigh since when i've become like this? I miss myself in secondary school years... Well...

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I can't stop eating!


I eat a lot during study weeks.
To destress.
To keep myself awake.
To keep myself occupied.
To simply put something into my mouth to munch :P
I like steamed fish.
I like petai.
I like prawns.
I like meat.
I like cold drinks.
I like chicken essence.
I like soup.
I like Hong Kong-style Ju Cheung Fan.
I like... okay there's nothing edible which i don't like :P
Woah luckily i'm at home, so i can fulfil my needs haha :P
If only i can say "i can't stop studying" too, sigh... Reality bites *Ouch!*

Friday, April 09, 2010

Motivated


Attended MBBS (Malaya) 2005/2010 Hippocratic Oath (Declaration of Geneva) Taking Ceremony & Temporary Registration Certificate Giving Ceremony at my faculty building Balai Ungku Aziz today. Tears welled up in my eyes when i see the joy in the faces of new medical doctors upon receiving their certs & the solemnity during the oath taking ceremony; i was so touched!

In a year's time, i will follow their foot steps in receiving my very first university degree, and to hold the responsibility of treating my patients ethically as i should be.

The various high achievements they've got, i wouldn't dare to challenge, but i will try my best to do my best ;)

To all my friends who are going to graduate this year, may this not be the only great achievement you attain in your life, may it be the stepping stone for you to reach out higher and even greater! All the very best to all of you in your future undertakings, and may we meet again in future ;) Keep in touch!

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Recharged for the final week of year4

Had a great weekend :)
Fully recharged & destressed to do my best to accomplish my tasks during this final week of year4 before i start my study weeks & final exams, and then declare myself as a final year student :)
Pray for me.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Finding lost self

At loss recently...
I need to get my old self back to fight all these battles...
I miss myself during secondary school days...

Am i that insecure that i've to seek refuge & reassurance in other people?
I've lost a big chunk of my self-confidence...
This is not the "me" i know of...

I've sailed through rougher tides; has the steering on my ship gone broken? The radar, perhaps?

Expectations... are they too high? Or have i not worked hard enough?
It's time to move out of my comfort zone & wake up!

First things first!
Sometimes reality makes people realise that the outcome is going to be similar whether you give up or persevere. Ain't that true?

Am I not cut up for this?
Enlighten me, please.

The Road Not Taken ~ Robert Frost
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that, the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

two roads diverged in a wood, and I --

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.



Thursday, March 04, 2010

Stress: Warning Signs & Symptoms

Behavioural Symptoms
Eating more or less
Sleeping too much or too little
Isolating yourself from others
Procrastinating or neglecting responsibilities
Using alcohol, cigarettes, or drugs to relax
Nervous habits (e.g. nail biting, pacing)

Cognitive Symptoms
Memory problems
Inability to concentrate
Poor judgement
Seeing only the negative
Anxious or racing thoughts
Constant worrying

Emotional Symptoms
Moodiness
Irritability or short temper
Agitation, inability to relax
Feeling overwhelmed
Sense of loneliness and isolation
Depression or general unhappiness

Physical Symptoms
Aches and pains
Diarrhea or constipation
Nausea, dizziness
Chest pain, rapid heartbeat
Loss of sex drive
Frequent colds

I've 15 out of 24 :(

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Percy Jackson & the Olympians: The Lightning Thief


Quite a nice movie with predictable story plot & young actors with little acting experience :(
Happy to see McHottie -- Kevin McKidd a.k.a. Dr Owen Hunt (Grey's Anatomy) acting as Poseidon :D
Guys with green & blue eyes are mesmerising :P

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Life is not always easy - Mary A. Rothman

Life Isn't Always Easy
Life can be unfair at times
When you must maintain faith
And never let go
It's especially during the difficult times
That you must live your life to it's fullest potential
Life is not always easy
But if you keep going and persevere
To the very best of your ability
You'll gain strength to manage
The new challenges ahead
ALWAYS BELIEVE
That there are bright and wonderful days ahead for you
And you'll find them

Thursday, February 18, 2010

All's well ends well

Watched this CNY movie with friends the other day. A silly movie :P But it brought us lotsa laughter :D

Kokomo by The Beach Boys

Aruba Jamaica ooo I wanna take you
Bermuda Bahama come on pretty mama
Key Largo Montego baby why don't we go
Jamaica

Off the Florida Keys
There's a place called Kokomo
That's where you wanna go to get away from it all

Bodies in the sand
Tropical drink melting in your hand
We'll be falling in love
To the rhythm of a steel drum band
Down in Kokomo

Aruba Jamaica ooo I wanna take you
To Bermuda Bahama come on pretty mama
Key Largo, Montego baby why don't we go

Ooo I wanna take you down to Kokomo
We'll get there fast
And then we'll take it slow
That's where we wanna go
Way down to Kokomo

To Martinique, that Monserrat mystique

We'll put out to sea
And we'll perfect our chemistry
By and by we'll defy a little bit of gravity

Afternoon delight
Cocktails and moonlit nights
That dreamy look in your eye
Give me a tropical contact high
Way down in Kokomo

Aruba, Jamaica ooo I wanna take you
To Bermuda, Bahama come on pretty mama
Key Largo, Montego baby why don't we go

Ooo I wanna take you down to Kokomo
We'll get there fast
And then we'll take it slow
That's where we wanna go
Way down to Kokomo

Port Au Prince I wanna catch a glimpse

Everybody knows
A little place like Kokomo
Now if you wanna go
And get away from it all
Go down to Kokomo

Aruba, Jamaica ooo I wanna take you
To Bermuda, Bahama come on pretty mama
Key Largo, Montego baby why don't we go

Ooo I wanna take you down to Kokomo
We'll get there fast
And then we'll take it slow
That's where we wanna go
Way down to Kokomo

Aruba, Jamaica ooo I wanna take you
To Bermuda, Bahama come on pretty mama
Key Largo, Montego baby why don't we go

Ooo I wanna take you down to Kokomo

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Long time no see

Met an acquaintance who's one of my secondary schoolmate at UM Medical Centre on my way back to hostel. She's a biotechnology graduate from UTAR, but now selling dental implants! What a small world... Hahaha 1st time i exchanged my namecard with a salesperson :P I usually give to my patients & potential patients only...

Saturday, January 02, 2010

Parents' Education Level in Children's Upbringing & Character Moulding

Some said that a person's character is built by the environment he/ she lives in & the experience gained over time. I personally feel that parents' attitude & education level play big roles in how a child gets his/ her personality & character built.

A person's mentality is very much influenced by that of his/ her parents, whereas education level is one of the factors influencing one's mentality.

To a pair of couple with low education level, earning enough money to cover daily expenses & maybe to have a luxurious life are more important than spiritual & mental development. In the Chinese society, children are taught to master mathematics from a very young age as most of their parents are directly or indirectly involved in doing business. Hence, little attention are paid on language development especially the non-mother tongues, which are equally important in this multi-racial country. For this reason, Eastern people are less expressive in their emotions & thoughts, and are thought to be more introvert. (Correct me if i'm wrong.)

As the country becomes more developed, people get more educated and have their mindset & mentality changed.
More Chinese get recruited into the government sector to hold positions as professionals with their improved education level. More emphasis is put on language & spiritual development. There is no doubt that through reading, we gain knowledge, and through knowledge, we build our character and mentality. And to read effectively, one has to grasp the basics & style of the language first.
Parental guidance & encouragement come into play in inculcating reading interest in a child. For this matter, parents' education level strongly influences how much they realise and weigh the importance of reading and having a good command of several languages in this modern world.
In this era, children are exposed to electronic devices and the cyber world at younger ages. Through the internet and various television programmes, one can gain a vast range of knowledge about anything under the sun. Educated parents often exert more appropriate controls in filtering out certain things which are deemed unsuitable for their children, besides providing more educational & informative stuffs to them. Without parental control, young children who are less able to differentiate right from wrong, good from bad, gets carried away very easily & won't benefit much from the modern technologies.

Hmm... I realised that i need to brush up my skills in writing... It seems to have got a lil' bit rusty over the years in which i've not been writing much as during my post-SPM and post-matriculation years way back in year 2005 & 2006 :P

All in all, I'm very grateful to my parents who have been encouraging my sister and me, and providing us the best learning environment. Although I don't have the best character & personality, but at least I've the chance to step foot on the university campus to pursue a professional degree, with a very promising future in hand :)

A good command of English is important in learning scientific stuffs as one who has it has less problem in comprehending the text and related articles, thus learns faster and more effectively. I sincerely hope that our younger generations will not be deprived of their opportunity to learn Science & Mathematics in English for the betterment of their future.
(Oops... Out of topic, again >.<)

Friday, January 01, 2010

2009 -> 2010

Happy New Year!
New year resolutions? Well, i'm afraid to make any as i don't want to disappoint myself if i couldn't achieve what i've planned :P Ok, it's time to get rid of this cowardice mindset!

What year 2009 meant to me
Reaching adulthood (21 years old) :P
Realising the power of positive thinking & self-confidence according to Rhonda Byrne's book The Secret in influencing outcomes in my life ;) There's a will, there's a way! (Must finish reading that book :P Yes, i've not finished reading the whole book.)

Year 2010: A year of Hope
Hoping to finish whatever i've started
Hoping to improve myself in all aspects
Hoping to achieve the best i can give
Hoping that our world can be a better place to live in ;)

Happy New Year 2010!